Once i met a girl who ran an event that i've attended.

Cheerful, friendly, very nice, literally.

On the end of the event, i asked her if i could get her back home all so sudden.

Yes, she replied.

On the way to her home, we had a nice chat.

And when i drop her home, we continued chatting through texts.

It's weird, actually.

I can say that she had a crush on me.

But i didn't. And it's true.

It came clear enough when she asked me if i can accompany her for buying some stuff.

As always, we had nice chat.

And all of the sudden, when we hang out in some open cafe,

bunch of college students offered me a box of roses.

They said, "It's for our charity, will you buy one, please?"

And of course, if it's for charity, i won't say no.

There. A rose i bought and i gave it to her.

She was shocked. Obviously.

It's an expression for love. And i accidentaly gave her.

But, i really didn't mean it.

Many days later,

and many texts had been sent,

i'm 98% sure if she had a crush on me, totally.

But, i didn't.

What is this feeling?

I've had many ex'es, and i could fall in love,

but not with her.

It's weird. All i want is to befriend with her.

And after months, we had some problems.

And yes, we are seems to be poorly-connected now.

Did you ever felt something related on above?

This unsure feelings,

unexpectedly made some casualties. Emotionally.

I feel bad. At myself.

Is it really the perfect time being single,

or wanted some affection,

or maybe some holding hands-moment that i've been dreamed on.

It feels like her affection is standing next to me,

but i can't barely stand.

I can't even said a word.

It's a pure hesitancy.

She's lovely, to be honest.